It was a bitter sweet tome of a man's desire to find some missing piece, something that pulls at the heart and aches to breathe... Something that I know my own heart has felt. To walk away from the 'expectations' and 'rules' of our society and forge something blissfully unique and real. Not just living off the land, but living in a spiritually heightened sense of being.
I find a taste of this when I hike out in the mountains or even just along the trails at Stone Mountain.
It was something that I thought I needed just a short time ago. To walk away from Atlanta, from family and friends and to forge a new existence among the trees and hills.
And while there is still a need for that existence - - - - it's changed. Maybe I'm growing up finally. Maybe it's the two years that led up to a special night and a life-changing week that have turned my heart and my focus... Instead of giving up on society as a whole, I find myself building bridges. Starting new adventures and even seeing my life with someone.
The gift I want to give is me. All I am. First to my new wife (18 days to go). Then to my kids - even the possibility of another little one. And slowly letting my family back into my life.
I still need my time in the woods. I'm thinking about writing a book. Just my thoughts on life there versus the life we lead in the urban jungles. Who knows! But I do know that this life has been given as a gift and I will keep finding my time in the wild, but also taking each moment that I spend with Jenelle, my kids - those I care about as part of the experience.
McCandless' story ended alone. I won't say more than that, look it up! I want to share what I am - who I am with those who will listen. Keep a conversation going with those that share my heart. Keep breathing and giving!!
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