Forgiveness

After 17 months, 518 days and 836 meetings, it comes down to forgiveness.

And that’s what today (court) is truly about.  I get to stand up and acknowledge not only the pain I felt deeply and lashed out on others without remorse, but also say to the little boy who doesn’t understand why Daddy’s not always present, “I’m sorry”.  

Not in words.  But in actions.  

In 17 months of living a different life.  

And I get to do one other thing.

I get to forgive myself.  

For the guilt and pain I’ve held onto.  The things I wish I could have done differently.  

Let it go.

There will be other hard days.  But each day I live in the Spirit (Romans 8) I can truly breathe.

So, here it goes…

“I forgive me.”

~ Peace

The Burtle

after tears and loss, 

each day I find

I'm still here, 

and I move on

til the end.

I do not know

how each day will go

but through tears,

through heartache

loss, hurt

I let it go

04/21/22

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