Someday someone’s gonna recognize the man who I am. The man who loves God, struggles with life and still tries… I try. The sarcastic, witty, sensitive asshole who just loves people and wants to help. Funny thing is though, the person who needs to see that first is me. And that’s a journey that I am working through. I work on it every day.
This morning I sent an apology/thank you text to a man who I don’t know very well. We had a tense conversation several days ago and I realize that I still need to make sure that I keep my side of the street clean. That when something comes up - and I have not been the better version of me – that I own it, apologize and look to do it better next time. I hope that makes sense. This is kind of a shotgun blog written in haste as I’m heading into work. Because there’re some things on my mind.
I’m so blessed with what God has given me. So very thankful. And as I woke up at 4 AM with a super killer headache, nauseous and just pounding, I’m still trying to do the day. One step at a time.
There’s been some new things come up that I’m praying about. Some old things that I’m letting go. All in all, it’s a beautiful chilly Friday. And maybe as most of the world is celebrating a fabricated holiday for couples made by Hallmark and candy manufacturers… I’m just so thankful that God loves me.
And I love me. Not that I don’t beat the crap out of myself sometimes - but again, progress not perfection!
So as I looked this morning up at the stars well before sunrise, even as my head was pounding, looking Westward… I breathed and started my day.
I have a date this evening with Drew Holcomb and his music at symphony hall. Guess that’s not the worst way to fake celebrate the day!
Thank you!
Anyone who reads this, anyone who is a part of my life. And thank you, God. For everything.
~ Peace
The Burtle
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