Creating Space.

"Space, the final frontier…" 

WAIT!!!! Wait! 

Nope, not that kind of space.

Opening up.  That can seem scary as hell!

The world keeps turning.  Days come and go.  Weeks turn into months; turn into years.  And I hit another milestone - 2 1/2 years.  It’s been a ride.  And not the Scream Machine/Mindbender ride that I was on for so much of my past.  It’s been a ride with less up-and-downs, more forward motion and more time to truly reflect and resonate on who I am and what I truly want to be. 

And one of the things that has been “sitting in my craw’ a little bit, just waiting for me to take some time with is how to create space for others.  Time for them in my life.  Oh, I’ve got time.  My days are quite simple right now.  It’s been a journey of taking care of me and the rhythms that I need to stay in a healthy, sane, sober life.  And it’s also learning how to open up and to let others in. Slowly.  Shifting my paradigm around to allow for some of my time and space to be given to someone, others.  And to do it healthily and in ways that edify my path and hopefully share a little joy and light with those who join me along the way.

Means trusting.  One step at a time.

It means accepting that it will hurt to grow.  Again.  But this way more like the flower that opens up after so much time preparing, rooting down, drawing up as a stem or vine.  Getting ready to show the world the beauty, the color, the uniqueness that’s been laying dormant.

Or maybe it’s just opening up to those who are special enough to recognize the powerful moment that is about to transpire.

Making space.  

To bloom.

~ Peace

The Burtle

To Serenity

To me, Serenity is Peace in the moment. In every circumstance.  A place I can be, though I walk away from at times, but know I can reach back inward toward it - regardless of what the world and those in it (including myself) throw at me.

Serenity is learned, practiced and ultimately is a choice.  A discipline that transcends circumstance or feeling.

It is being.

One moment at a time.

And I often only catch glimpses of it.  Bombardment of my stimuli through everything from news outlets to social ‘media’ can wreck it.  Those I am closest to can often, whether on purpose of through actions/words, steal it away - if I allow them.

I sat in a room this morning with many people that I truly respect and love, and found myself having to close my eyes and pray.  One of the men who was sharing kept giving advice on things that he wasn’t doing in that actual moment.  My choice?  Stop.  Pray.  Listen to God and let this man speak, though I soooo wanted to find some cotton and duck tape!

I found my breath slowed.  My thoughts turned inward to where I was, to my feet and to the reason I was there.

“God, grant me the serenity…”

Peace in that moment.

~ Peace

The Burtle