I didn't smile.
Then I felt some things inside me opening up and my world started to slowly change. I found the part of me that I thought was missing and I started rebuilding me, Chad.
It took those two years to get to here.
Two weeks ago I had decided that finding someone who really met me and fit with me were just about impossible. I had met several who were close, but there was always a hesitancy. Was I willing to settle on some things to not be alone?
For the first time I truly believed that finding true love, a deep love was just about done. My life wasn't bad. I knew that there were many people around me who cared about me and wanted me to be happy.
My kids even said they wanted me happy.
Then I go on a hike around Stone Mountain and something changes.
She was there.
I had noticed her since the first hike she came on early in the year. I remember never feeling like I had opportunity or even reason to talk to her. But I noticed her. At first that she was attractive. Then, when I hurt myself on that same trail a couple of months later, she showed compassion. Just enough for me to truly notice her. See something more inside.
Then she was gone and I was out for several weeks.
I saw her again three weeks ago. This time we talked. This time there was more. I knew that there was something drawing me to her. I fought with this in my head, not wanting to believe my own thoughts. And before the end of the hike I knew that I had to somehow get in touch with her. To see if there was anything there. We met later that week...
She has changed my world in a few short weeks. I think that it's mutual.
Some times what you are looking for is just around the corner, waiting for the right moment - hopeful that you'll listen to the voices guiding you together. And when you finally are together, two people finding answers to questions, smiles shared and hopes reborn...
I've waited most of my life for this. I won't take a moment for granted.
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