Lasso the Sky

I had a friend recently tell me that you can’t tie a lasso around a bird.  They have to fly free.  And I immediately knew the sentiment.  The times that I have flown the highest are those when I was free to spread my wings and soar.  Sailing on the wind, letting the fresh breeze hit my face.

Yet, sometimes I make mistakes when I take a leap… try to fly on my own.  You can’t fly without the wind underneath your wings.  It’s a scientific fact, the factor of lift.  Science meets faith whenever a plane lines up on the runway or when an eagle spreads itself out to soar over the Western skies.

It’s a leap of faith every day that we open up, approach the cliff and hope to soar.  The view up there is glorious when we touch the clouds, just shy of heaven.

And sometimes we fall.

Grounded.

Physically

Emotional

Mentally

Spiritually

Finding myself back on the ground, looking up, but not sure how to mend. How do broken wings heal and eventually soar again?

Flying isn’t passive.  Even when just riding an air current with wings fully spread, there are forces that direct and guide.  Kinda like God.

I’ve landed back in Atlanta.  Whether it be for a couple of months or the rest of my life, who the hell knows?!  But I’m here.  One thing I will say about myself is that I don’t mind taking a risk if I feel like it’s worth it.  In the last two years my risk-taking has been a lot less fatal.  I know there are things that scare others, but taking a couple of months to see if a new city (Charlotte) was worth it; I don’t consider that a failure (at least I’m still trying to convince myself that it wasn’t a failure lol).  What I do realize is that baby steps are ok, that breathing is good and recharging is not only necessary, it’s critical right now.

I was running away from situations in Atlanta that I wanted to remove myself from and in typical Chad form, I jumped immediately into a bigger storm and now I’m finding myself looking back down at my feet. 

Where I stand.

I hope to not be grounded for long.  And the incredible support that I have around me keeps telling me to just take a moment; in, out - keep breathing…

We can’t lasso the spirit.  That inner voice, that guides us; our God, our higher power, where we go for direction and strength.  Let it soar within you. 

Let it rise!

~ Peace

The Burtle