Castle Walls

Our hearts are incredible machines.  Our spiritual and emotional heart is no less incredible, and no less fragile.

I've been a wall builder, a construction worker of sorts, for years.  I've built walls, structures, strongholds, fortresses and yes, castles to protect my heart from hurts that have come over the years.  My castles started from the emotional turmoil of so long ago. It has morphed over the years from a simple wall to protect a frontal attack into the 'castle on a hill' protecting what was inside.

But just like the images of the real castles that sit as antiquated pictures of long ago.  So is my castle becoming less and less viable in my life.

I used to do everything to protect those walls.  To not let anything past a certain point.  Many people say that I'm too open, well they don't know all that is inside.  Only a select few really get to enter beyond the gates and see.  And that was one of the problems that castles have.  They keep people in.  Sometimes chained to protecting something that really wasn't working.  Yes, it kept out intruders.  But it also kept those inside from truly living.

There will always be guarded places.  My spirit recognizes that there needs to be places of rest that are truly fortified by something that can keep my heart warm and safe.  But the castle walls are coming down.

Guarding the walls takes energy that I no longer have.  I surrender.

But not surrender to the enemy.

There is strength inside that I have started to realize.  It is like those walls are becoming something so different.  The refuge that I seek isn't something that keeps out life.  

IT IS LIFE!


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