I had a friend tell me just tonight that I had to make a decision. That instead of merely trying to follow a good path and try to do the right things, that I just had to make up my mind and DO THE RIGHT THING.
It comes down to more than the philosophy or the discussion over several different options. It comes down to making a decision and then carrying that out.
I've been so close (I thought) at times to truly doing this, but I always find a moment when I waver and succumb to the fear of either fitting in, or standing out too much... many different things that make me loose sight of what I am truly seeking.
Yoda put it so clearly. To try is to automatically fail. To not see that there is an ultimate victory in sight - even if it takes years to find it. I've given parts of my soul at times to those moments. Trying when all I needed to do was to realize that there was a step that comes before the attempt.
Do.
Do Not.
If I looked at more things through this perspective maybe I would understand that there are some decisions that are just a 'Do Not', and walk away. If I were asked to fix the wiring on a computer I know that it really is a "DO NOT", actually it's probably DO NOT TOUCH! If you asked me to help move some boxes or clean and organize something, then it's a "Do".
That's pretty simplified, but even the bigger issues are sometimes just as simple. Do I keep pushing through relationships that I see clearly have no Hope? Do I miss out on someone really special because I am trying SOOOOO hard in something that just doesn't fit?
So I need to move forward. I need to decide. I need the strength to realize that this life isn't a TRY, but it's simply DO or DO NOT.
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