Listen to your HEART!!!

The Heart knows...

It can tell you when it's time to let go of something that was once wonderful, live and vibrant.

It can beat and grow with the anticipation of reaching the summit for the very first time.

It can slow and grow weary when worked too hard and too long.

My physical heart gave me a scare this weekend.

I was sick all last week, flu like stuff, and I really felt bad.  I had fever and chills - body aches and pain.  Then early Saturday morning the pain started.  For over an hour I felt like someone was pushing and grabbing at my heart.  Wanting to squeeze me to death from the inside out.  The pain went away and I felt ok.  I wasn't trying to ignore it.  Actually I felt it was really bad indigestion. 

Then it came back.

Calmly and carefully I LISTENED!  This wasn't a game.  It wasn't some philosophical decision that needed to be made.  It was my heart.  And it was serious.

We went to Gwinnett Medical, a place I really dread.  And even in the E.R.s response to my pain showed me that you just don't mess around with things like this...

I was tested and watched over the last three days and at around 4pm today was allowed to pack my things and go home.  I had swelling in my heart that caused the pain.  Myocarditis.  Most likely from the virus that I had the week before.

I had a lot of time to think.

How many YEARS have I not listened to my Heart?  Not the tick-tock beating of the organ that I went to the hospital for, but the emotional center of my being that resonates who I am.  My soul even.

All these writings just can't fully express how much clearer life becomes when you are in a room hooked up to machines waiting to see if you're going to be ok or not.

The dreaded unknown is so daunting at times.  But it wasn't fear that engulfed me over this weekend.  It was something altogether different.  I was calm.  I didn't loose it (well I almost lost it on Saturday night).  I realized that it just wasn't in my hands.

I looked at my heart and into the places of unrest that have swallowed me whole in the past and I hope to change those areas into more and more places that resonate with hope and joy.

I may change my diet.  I may also change some of my activities. 

I may also change some of the things that just eat at my spirit and keep me from finding the BEST of ME!

I'm glad to be home.  And realize that there were people who came forward this weekend who showed that they loved me.  Thank you all.

So if you're stuggling with Chest Pains - - - - GO TO THE HOSPITAL!!!!

But if you're struggling with hearing what your path really needs to be - - - 

just Listen to your HEART!!!!!!!